starry starry night

switching on the pretty star lights in my room
lying on my bed
with nothing in my mind
no mugging
no lab
no worries
nothing to do
it feels so surreal
so clear headed
but yet so empty in me
just waiting for the time to pass
as night turns into day and day to night
wanting time to pass faster

wondering how life would be like
in a few days
in a few weeks
in a few months
or even after i graduate
indulging in tv the whole day today makes me feel as tho my life is worthless
time is wasted
but yet i choose to watch it coz i refuse to study
and when finally there was something happy to look forward to
it turned out to be awkwardness and too much thinking on my part
so i shant think
but yet not thinking makes me empty
its a vicious cycle.
sometimes i really wonder what life is for.
as my brother asked me.. he kindof sees no meaning in what his life and future is gonna be like
and i had the cheek tell him, then try to make ur life exciting n meaningful.
and yet, me myself questions why am i living for
as i ponder on.. its just one of those nights
sleepless nights
tell myself i will get by
and off i go in attempt to lull myself to sleep
and as stardust puts it, no stars shine with a brokenheart..
so i shall dream of the day the stars in my small little room transform into shining stars to light up the whole night sky..